LEGACY

I don't mind if you've got something nice to say about me
And I enjoy an accolade like the rest
You could take my picture and hang it in a gallery
Of all the who's who and so-n-so's that used to be the best
At such 'n such...it wouldn't matter much

I won't lie, it feels alright to see your name in lights
We all need an "Atta boy" or "Atta girl"
But in the end I'd like to hang my hat on more besides
the temporary trappings of this world

Chorus:
I want to leave a legacy
How will they remember me?
Did I choose to love?
Did I point to you enough to make a mark on things?
I want to leave an offering
A child of mercy and grace who blessed Your name unapologetically
And leave that kind of legacy

I don't have to look too far or too long awhile
To make a lengthy list of all that I enjoy
It's an accumulating trinket and a treasure pile
Where moth and rust, thieves and such will soon destroy

Chorus

Not well traveled, not well read, not well-to-do or well bred
Just want to hear instead, "Well done" good and faithful one

Jesus Christ, I think upon your sacrifice,

You became nothing, poured out to death

Many times, I wonder at your gift of life,

I'm in that place once again.

I'm full of praise once again.

Today at work, my coworker told me that a sister at his church has cancer, and it has spread to other parts of her body. The church found out yesterday that she only has 7 months to live. I couldn't help but to put myself in her place. What a joy it would be, to know that in 7 months i would be in the most awesome place! It was strange, but i actually thought it would be so cool to know that your time is near, and that you only had so much time to do what is important. I thought about what i would do, and decided that if it were me, i would abandon my job and all my worries, and go evangelize in order to grab as many people into the kingdom as i can... But i couldn't help to stop and think that this life is a gift given to me, and i'm to use it purposefully. This is my new prayer...

"Dear God,

I only have about 60-70 years left. Help me to leave all my worries behind, and help me to be as effective as i can for your kingdom. In the time i have left, let me spend it grabbing hundreds of people along with me to go see you. Lord the time is precious, let it not be wasted.

Amen

"For to me, to live is Christ and to die is gain." Phil 1:21

Have you read my profile's welcome message? Well, yeah, i started this Spiritual Journal cuz sometimes God puts things on my heart that just gets me pumped and i wanna tell the world.

These past 1.5-2 months, God has just been really exposing me to something specific on His heart through His word. I realize more clearly how he wants not just me, but all His children to seek after this desire on His heart. And this past weekend was seriously like God shouting loud and clear and just really giving me direction in my Spiritual journey, and in my decisions for my future... adult meeting, Sunday sermon, talk with Mike, Perspectives... man, i can go on and on about how God laid these things on my heart... but I'll let Him speak for Himself.

(Big Breath) Isaih 58, 1 John 3:17-19, James 2:15-16, Jms 2:2-9, Jms 1:27, Heb 13:3, 1 Tim 5:16, 1 Tim 6:8, Eph 4:28, Gal 6:10, Gal 2:10, 2 Cor 8:9, 2 Cor 9, Rom 12:8, 13, Luke 8, Luke 19, Acts 20:35, Rom 12:20, Luke 11:41, (another big breath) Mark 19:21,Matt 25:35-36, Dan 4:27, Ezek 18:16-17, Isa 58:10, Isa 1:17, Prov 29:7, Prov 28:27, Psalm 41:1-3, Ps 112:4-5,9, Neh 8:10, Deut 24:12-21, Lev 25:39-43, Lev 25-35-37, Ex 22:25-27, Ex 23:11...*

nuff said.

*not nearly an exhaustive list, this is just a lick of what the Bible has to say about some of the things on God's heart

Wow... it was around this time one year ago...Easter weekend. Around that time, I had been burdened with responsibilities coming from all over the place, and it was that weekend that i just couldn't handle it anymore. I broke. Every morning that week i woke up only to ask myself why i was taking on all the responsibilites that i had on plate, and why i put up with going through the routines of each day. Don't get me wrong, i wasn't suicidal or anything. Not at all. It's just that i wished i was with Jesus already, where i could just sit in his presence and soak in his glory, not worry about things like serving and such.

It was on that Easter Sunday, as we sang the song "Once Again" for the adult congregation. But as i stood up there, i once again had to "wonder at this gift of life". How could I complain about the burdens of serving our God, who without complaint took on the burdens of being hated, conspired against, lynched, mocked, spit on, stripped, and crucified, just so that I could have this life. I was serioulsy in that place, not once again, but for the first time.... the first time I truly realized the suffering He put up for us. How dare we ever complain about this life and the privelage to serve, a life so prescious that it took the life of our King.

I guess ya'll wondering why my blog name or whatever you call it for this non-Xanga SPIRITUAL JOURNAL is Watchman_gee... i guess i owe you an explanation.

Well, my name, which hopefull you know is Greg, means "watchful", or "watchman". And "gee" was my pager code (933) in High School, back in the days when all the hard-core og gangsters had pagers. You know you're one of them. Some of my friends call me gee still, i guess they're too lazy to say Greg... gee must be easier. =) Hence, "Watchman" "gee".  

But i guess it still sounds rather retarded unless you know who Watchman Nee is. Here's a little profile on his life: http://www.livingstream.com/watchman_nee_bio.html

But in a nutshell, Watchman Nee was one of God's Greatest servants in China during the early 20th century. Imprisoned and eventually dying for his faith, he was one who seriously KNEW the Word of God and had an intense trust in the sovreignty of the Lord. Though he was jacked up physically with health problems, he accomplished Great things for the Lord by the Grace provided him. Man, as of now, the closest i come to him is in the name... but one day, I pray, i will be like him in Character.